Thank you, but it hurts me... Because it turned out to be NOTHING

When you set the limitations you know it hurts me :( The first time I saw you, the first time I met you, The first time I've talked to you, though I can't remember anymore how did it start like you were just an ordinary people, an ordinary customer I'm dealing with, everyday at work I have never imagined we would be this close, yes we are close but not this close. I fell in love with you like my mom, yes, I have a mom but unfortunately she is sick and I cannot feel the mother's love, I have found in you. I feel like you wanted to let me go, I understand that but I just can't let go of a person who helped me to be positive to be happy and to be beautiful. If only I could tell you please don't let me go or PLEASE DON'T GO, not because I need you, BUT BECAUSE I LOVE YOU. If there is something I need from you, I just need to be loved, a mother's love you know that's the missing piece I am looking for my whole life that's why I'm praying to be with my mom but unfortunately when I met her its not the way I wanted it to be :( and I found you. That's only thing I wanted from you, that's why I wanted to be close to you its because I am looking for mother's love and not to fell in love with your son the reason why you're making limitations. I have known you before him and its killing me to understand that he will be the reason why we have to set limitations it broke my heart when he broke my heart and now, I don't want you to go, I can never let you go, I will never let you go. You were the first person who told me I am beautiful when I see myself I am nothing, I'm just simple but not beautiful, I actually know I am but when I got here I forget about that because of the life I'm dealing with and its hard to be me. you were the first person who loves me the way I wanted to be love, you gave me the positivity, you made me feel I am important because the five years I spent here in America I felt like I was just a person like nobody cares if  I am here, I am there, I am nowhere and nobody cares of my presence or absence :( which I understand when I'm at home I'm dealing with the biggest drama of my life, I just can't tell you everything :( YOU SEE ME WHEN I FELT LIKE I WAS INVISIBLE TO EVERYBODY. Its killing me now to realize everything :( he ruined my kindness, he ruined my heart he ruined me, he broke my heart and you know what I hate about him? is that he choose someone who ruined him over me and now here Iam waiting for nothing crying for nothing, sad for nothing losing someone for nothing :( I hope he knows that I fixed everything, I fixed him but its all for nothing :(