Another day of my escape.
Today, I'm off but I have to dress like I'm going to work or else they will let me stay in the house and do everything because I'm off, not allowed to take a rest or relaxed but just to serve them because Im staying with them without any charges like money involve know but my life involves. Most of the time I want to stay home without make up, without even had to dress up, I want to mesmerize, I want to just sit or lay down on the bed watch tv and go outside do everything I want but most specially i want to sleep take a rest and fell relaxed but how am I suppose to do that when, I have to do these and that cook meals for the kids make everything for them or somebody's waiting for somebody and I have to wait for them, its just that I can't breathe anymore. I want to be on my own but I want to have my own crowd like my own family like husband and kids its just that I can't force it to happen. I don't know I'm so anxious about it :( like, I would die alone...