I LEARNED IT THE HARD WAY

I'm so happy today March 22, 2019. This is the start. Please Lord, please guide us to all the decisions we well make. I hope everything will be ok and everything will be fixed. I learned it the hard way lord I've been here for 8 years. Please, I've suffered enough, I've been through a lot all I want is to be at peace, move on and let go. I want to have a life since I already started here it was so hard for me to earn the degree of Nursing then I'm just a cashier :(. I hope when I had my time I'll work hard and party hard I want to be happy Lord please I want to be at peace :) I hope that I will get another job or double job or if not please let me have another job that is better than Fry's, that will shape me and will be a better version of me. Please guide us O Lord. Please let me have my full time for myself. I want to enjoy myself and I want to enjoy America. I want to attend parties that I won't feel I'm out of place and I want to work for a job that I won't feel that I have to fit in or beg someone to be their friend. Lord, I learned it far enough to suffer please make my life a little lighter. If other's were happy, I hope i can be happy too :)and that's just it :) I'm not asking for greater than that I wanted to be simple. I want to have a family too I hope you'll let me, I hope I'll find him. I don't want to die alone, I want to be happy I want to feel how's feels like they can't let you go or they can't go on their lives without you BECAUSE THEY LOVE YOU AND NOT JUST BECAUSE THEY NEED YOU. I want to feel, HOW'S LIKE TO BE LOVE, not just in love for a moment because they just need you. I want to feel HOW'S IT FEELS LIKE THEY LOVE YOU, THEY LIKE YOU AND NOT JUST THEY NEED YOU. Its hard Lord, I learned it the hard way please make it a little lighter for me.